Number Twenty One.

Regardless of religion, do you ever wonder… What is God trying to tell me?

I guess for me, that’s happening right now. His not so subtle hints are starting to really make me wonder. Like on The Proposal, he says to Sandra Bullock, “She’s about as subtle as a drum”. That’s my favorite line of the whole movie. Okay not really, the whole movie gives me the giggles.

But really, I don’t know what God is trying to tell me other than to love and serve everyone. Everywhere I look, go, see… something is service oriented. I’m not complaining. I happen to love service. I’m just wondering, maybe there is someone that I will serve in the future or am currently serving that is literally waiting for me.

I taught my first Relief Society Lesson a few weeks ago. Please keep in mind that I’m in the St. George first ward. The first ward people! First one in St. George ever, so imagine the age of these ladies… older than me by far. Nothing wrong with the age difference but I didn’t understand why the bishop sent me there to teach a room full of wise women. During my lesson, I understood. A lady raised her hand and told me something. She told me that God must have a plan. She wasn’t oblivious to the age difference. She said that there must be a reason that a 19 year-old girl was teaching them.

IT CLICKED.

I wasn’t called as teacher because I had something to actually teach them. I’m called as their teacher because I have something/a lot to learn.

This isn’t the only case, it’s everywhere in my life. No one is waiting to hear something from me, through my service… I’ll be the one learning from all the people I’ll be serving.

 

I’m an advocate of education. I think every man, woman, child, etc. should obtain as much education as possible. Some people may say different, but knowledge is power. As much as I say that college is overwhelming and leaves me in more tears than I can ever keep track of, I’m fully aware of the important things I’m gaining. HOWEVER, college never taught me to serve others. Or to love unconditionally. But now I’m out in the real world and I’m learning.

I know, I’m 19 and I’m STILL learning the meaning of service and love. I should go play with a child because they know the true meaning of it all.

Thanks for reading my blog. It’s basically like a journal to me.

 

–A. Brent